Friday, February 5, 2010

The Ending of the Peru Dilema aka "Door Closes, Door Opens"

Well, last time I posted we were trying to decide.  We prayed about it and decided she should not go.  No matter what the MRI said, it wasn't going to
"magically" make her knee have no pain.  It was an agonizing decision.  We both encouraged her to go, and now we had to take it away.  

At first, she was angry, and I reminded her through my own tears, that it was not a decision we took lightly, nor one done out of punishment.  She finally understood that and wrote this in her blog (and yes, I have permission to share it!) :
  Hey there. So, today I may not be going to Peru *sigh* I'm not mad, more like sad. I'm crushed, but hey, it happens. I'm not mad at my mom and dad, I know that it's not their fault, and it's not Gods fault either. God has been telling my parents not to let me go, cuz he knows best, and now, they get it and are saying no. But it's alright. I wanted to go really bad, but...I dunno. This is just gonna happen all my life, and I have to accept it. I'm more fragile than most, and God is keeping me from harm (or should we say in this case, MAJOR harm). I really don't know how feel now. I guess it's like a longing, deep feeling that I have no idea what it is. Maybe sadness, depression, hurt. It's not anger. I just don't know what it is. I...I think I'm gonna go. 

My response was:

 sweetheart..I think you have a good handle on this. You know God only wants the best for you as do your parents. I think you get to feel disappointed and remember that Paul wanted to go somewhere to PREACH THE GOSPEL and God said no...and I am sure that Paul was thinking..ummm God..but I am going to do good things for you..why wouldn't you let me go??? Seemed the LOGICAL thing to do..but our God never promised to be always..His ways are not our ways..and His thoughts are not our thoughts. I hope this helps in any small way. I love you.

She went to church the next day and was met with a "wave" of adults who "could not believe her parents were not going to let her go."  She was very confused and we were, needless to say, a bit irritated.  Of course, none of those  people were here when we made the decision or knew ALL the details involved in the making of the decision.  So, we made a few calls to explain and understanding was spreading out to the "masses".  Here is her next blog post:

Ok, so I go to church today, and the message was applying yourself to God's work. Instantly I had a pain in the pit of my stomach. In the message, pastor said there are 3 things that might be preventing God from using you. So I look at them and I feel guilty. They were sin, doubt and laziness. So I'm thinking, ' Have I done any of these? Is that why God prevented me? Am I doubting? Am I being lazy? Do I have unconfessed sins? After the message, about 10 people came up to me and asked why I wasn't going, and did I start to feel bad. Now, yesterday, mom said that Megan told her Christian said That I would be one to get it. That started making me guilty, and a bit happy, cuz it was so cool Christian thought of me like that. Anyway, for Sunday School, Mrs.Morgan gave a lesson, and it was centered around the same thing. So I have that pain in my stomach again, and I was wishing I could leave, but I knew I couldn't. She said they would be praying, and afterwards, she and Jessie Jensen said I could do office work and Mrs.Hand could stay with me, so I got a small spark of hope, but on the way home, I was so confused. I told John everything that had happened, and I feel so confused. God, are you trying to tell me something? Didn't you just tell my parents you didn't want me to go? Why are you doing this to me? Why are you tormenting me? I just don't understand....... 
I commented on this and so did a friend of ours:
First of all...the three things that could hinder you from have none of them. You wanted to may have unconfessed sin...but you will take care of that and you do not doubt God. The torment lies in the fact that you made a decision...and now everyone, who doesn't even know the decision, are pointing you another way. In my life, I have always practiced...if there is a will there is a way. I would spend hours trying to come up with scheme after scheme to get what I wanted or do what I wanted. 9 times out of 10, I was never suppose to have or do what I wanted because of it not being what God wanted me to do. So, I see all these people as coming up wi "schemes" to get you to go. Not that they are being evil..just they know your heart. If there was a "scheme" I think God would have revealed it. Megan would say..oh take the time you need to decide...and she isn't saying that...not that she is too blame. There are always deadlines on trips.
Take heart, sweetie, God will open another door for you since this one is closed.

Our Friend:
Shelby, I would have to count myself among the people who were guilty of trying to problem solve for you. Like your mother said, it isn't because we're being evil, we all just think...maybe I can fix this!
NONE of us lives with the aches and pains and discomfort that you put up with every day, and we don't even know what it is we're trying to push you to do. We look at you, and see a heart for God in you, and push you to do things that we think sound right, or seem right. It doesn't make them right for you.
God's timing is perfect, not mine. Acutally, my timing stinks a bit. Know that I love YOU with all my heart, and God is using you right now to work in us, and maybe THAT was the whole point of this. I'm sorry if you have been tortured on my behalf. God can use you here, in Northville, just as well as he can use you on the other side of the world.
I will pray that God will give you peace, and that your stomach will stop hurting!
Within an hour, there was an OPEN door!  Something in the states, a few states south, doing stuff that IF her knee is still bothering her, she can still do!  God is so faithful and I pray that she will see the tremendous amount of love He has for her.  Here is her post:

Ok, so I can't go Peru....but Mrs.Morgan did say that they were planning a trip to Virginia and said I could go! YES! Thank you God! I am SO hoping God will allow me to go to this one. Mrs.Morgan said it's gonna be crafts, sewing, painting and all that stuff that I'm good at! Mom said it was as if God closed a door on one thing, and opened another. :D :D I am so happy. When the time come for the teens to go, I'm not gonna be sad, I'm gonna wish 'em off and pray one of them will reach someone. I hope this new trip means that THAT one is the one he wanted me to go to all along.
I am truly blessed and I know God is grooming her and is going to use her in a mighty way.


Anonymous said...

Fantastic goods from you, man. I've understand your stuff previous to and you're just
extremely great. I actually like what you've acquired here, certainly like what you're saying and the way in which you say it.
You make it entertaining and you still take care of to
keep it wise. I can't wait to read far more from you. This is actually a great web site.

Here is my web-site :: airplane games simulator

Anonymous said...

I think everything published was very logical.
However, what about this? what if you added a little information? I mean,
I don't want to tell you how to run your website, however what if
you added a post title that grabbed people's attention? I mean "The Ending of the Peru Dilema aka "Door Closes,
Door Opens"" is kinda boring. You might peek at Yahoo's home page and see how they write article headlines
to grab people to click. You might add a related video or a related pic or
two to get readers excited about what you've got to say.

In my opinion, it would make your blog a little

Also visit my page; clumsy ninja cheats

Anonymous said...

I am not sure where you are getting your information,
but good topic. I needs to spend some time learning much more or understanding more.
Thanks for excellent info I was looking for this info for my mission.

My web site subway surfers cheats